remembering an old friend

Four years ago on Novemeber 10th, 2005 there was a death in my town. The boys' name was Bobby Conklin. He was a senior in our highschool and one of our best hockey players. He would no doubt have gone pro if it weren't for this tragic accident. He was on his way to hockey try-outs and had just came from his girlfriends house. They had gotten into a huge fight the day before so he went over there and left a letter on her desk apologizing for everything and saying how much he loved her. And when he left it had been snowing. He was driving around a bend and began to lose control of his car. He was trying to correct himself, and he ended up over correcting. Before he knew it, his car was off the road and hanging from a tree
He had died instantly. This was one of the most tragic accidents to happen in our town. I remember getting the call from my brother about a half hour after it happened. My brother was really good friends with him. When he told me I just couldn't hold back the tears. Yanno its just one of those things that you never expect to hear happen to someone that you're friends with. You hear about car accidents in other towns and cities, but never yours. So when it actually happens its the worst thing. The next day at school was one of the saddest ever. It felt like i was dreaming. It was so surreal that i just wanted someone to pinch me so i would wake up.
That night at his wake, I had never seen so many people there. The line was out the door and down the road. There were so many people that knew him and that were friends with him, that they all came to support his family and his unbelievably heart broken girlfriend.
His family did so well with coping. His hockey number was retired #11. And will never be given again to any hockey player from B'ville. The hockey now wears a patch on there jersey with a #11 and hockey sticks. And on the ice there is a #11 with angel wings. Every year that goes by it still unreal that he is gone. Bobby will never be forgotte. <3#11

Cortacaaaa

This upcoming weekend is one of the best weekends here at Cortland, and im sure at Ithaca as well. It is basically just the biggest shit show you could participate in. There are always soooo many people that come to visit from a ton of different schools. A bunch of my friends from home are coming up to stay with me! And it is even one of their birthdays too which makes it even more of a reason to be reckless.
Having friends come visit for this weekend kind of sucks too. I feel like you just always have to be entertaining them, kind of like babysitting, which is never fun. Sleeping arrangements are always rough too. I remember it used to be so hard having visitors living in the dorm, especially more than 1-2 because there was never enough room unless you planned it for when your roommate was gone haha. I have about 6 friends coming up, so there will probably just be people sleeping all over my apt on the floor. Having that many friends up is always stressful because everyone wants to be doing something different. Half of the group will wanna go to 1 certain bar and the other half is going to want to go somewhere else. I mean were garunteed to be splitting up anyways but its still kind of annoying.
Besides that there is always so much to be doing. There are going to be so many alumni that are coming to visit. Almost all of our girls that graduated in the spring are coming back and i cantttt wait to see everyone. Its going to be so much fun. And i've never been to the game when its been at Ithaca so im pretty excited about that too. It'll be great im sure and the weather is supposed to be real nice so that will make just that much more enjoyable....Have funn ragingggg this weekendddd :)

Living the Dream

Being away at school is one of the greatest freedoms and adventures that anyone coukd go through. I kind of feel bad for those who stick around their home town and go to the community college right near them, or even a 4 year school right by them. I think living away from home is such a great accomplishment. It shows that you are responsible enough to handle your life. Yeah, for freshman and sophmore year you have t ostay on campus, but even still its great to not have to tell your parents/gaurdians where you are at every second of the day.
Of course, just by instinct you're probably going to tell your roomates where you're going but it's just not the same.Being able to come and go as you please is so refreshing to me. I absolutely love it. Especially now that i have an apartment, it makes me feel really grown up ans responsible. I have always been a responsible person but it's different when you're the one actually paying the bills and buying the groceries and etc. I mean i live with my best friend so we kind of feed off of eachother on that kind of stuff. We usually are asking each other for advice on what to do.
Of course it's still weird to not see your parents everyday, but it just makes it thast much better when you do get to see them. I feel like after living away from home and then going back home for like summer and xmas break the rules change. Like when I go home now, I never really tell my parents what i'm doing because now i'm so used to just talking to them every couple of days. I think they probably get mad when I randomly just don't come home one night, but I think they understand? Maybe not but i'm over it. So basically living away at school, we're just livin the dreammm